It is so very, very hard to enjoy anything right now. Holidays, birthdays, anniversaries. Nothing. I feel nothing but emptiness. Loneliness. Sorrow. I try very hard not to cry, but sometimes, sometimes the tears just come............It's been 1 year 8 months since my mother passed away, 1 year sine my father passed away and 9 months since my husband passed away. So much loss in such a short time, I do not know how I even make it out of bed each day.
Week-ends are hard, but I know they only last two days and then I can go back to work. But a holiday like this one, where I have four days off.....this is a killer for me. Memories come and all I want to do is not remember.
When will it not be so very, very hard...........When?!