Devastation and Loss

I have very sad news to write here.....these words are very hard for me to writer......

but somehow I feel I must set these words down in writing

My husband of 9 years died Monday due to a stroke, high blood pressure and a blood clot.

Even though we have had our difficulties, this has been a devastating shock to me

I will be, I need to be, away for awhile to get myself back, to find some meaning in all of this

I am totally at a loss right now...........