Ease on Down the Road.....

Oh my, follow the yellow brick road....ok....that's what I've been doing...and here I am on this damned yellow brick road.  Yellow brick road to my left, to my right, straight in front of me, behind me.  I've been on this yellow brick road now for I don't know how long and have nothing to show for it....except for these damned red shoes......and believe me, they aren't anything to write home about.  They don't keep you warm on a long, cold lonely night.  They don't do anything.  They're just there.  If they are good for anything, I haven't figured it out yet.

Why do I have to follow this road alone? Where is my traveling companion?  It would be nice to have someone to travel this path with me.  Someone with brains, a strong heart, some courage. Damned yellow brick road.  Damned red shoes.  Just gets a little lonely out here.  Be nice to have someone to be in step with, see some of the sights with, fight off these flying monkeys (what the hell they are I don't know, but I don't like them),someone to talk to.  You know, a live person, these talking apple trees are not big on conversation, and they are a little grouchy.  Someone to maybe  even figure out these red shoes.

Ok, temper tantrum over with.  There seems to be a forest coming up.  Looks a little dark and scary.  You know red shoes, now would be a good time to produce that traveling companion.  Yep, nothing.  Have to go this one alone also.  Damned red shoes.  Damned yellow brick road.  Ok, just breathe.  You can do it. You've got brains, a good heart, some courage. Just ease on down the road.....you and your red shoes.

Hmmm, I bet you there's lions.......and tigers..........and bears in this forest.  Ok! Where is that companion? Lions.....and tigers......and bears......Oh My!

...On Loneliness

Last evening was yet another evening like all the others.. I made myself a simple dish, poured some wine into a goblet, and watched the night settle in gently through my window.


The changing night sky was divine as I savored the the wine, and Billie Holiday playing on the stereo as my only company.

Funny how one can embrace being alone, for sometimes it does becomes habit. However, this evening found me feeling the loneliness. I sat there, with life and beauty surrounding me....eating alone.
The loneliness was so thick...still is...I can cut it with a knife.

I don't know why I posted this here, when most of time I'm my ever cheerful self...probably just the need to share my feelings. Besides, writing about it is a form of release and therapy.

Please...it's not to garner sympathy or anything of the like. I'll be fine and this too shall pass.

I guess I just wanted the company and you have all been so wonderful. Thank you for always dropping by and reminding me that there is a world out there with so many beautiful individuals.

I need not feel alone.

Today I Am Human

Today I Am Human

today I am human

I know this too well...

dark emotions within me

no longer they dwell

for sadness and loneliness

this day they have crept..

they've seized my whole being

and left me inept

these days past I've laughed

put thoughts forth quite merry...

yet today laughter is gone

all that's left is contrary

and the hopes, dreams, and wonder

which my heart has fully nourished...

lie in tattered shades of doubt

heart once hopeful...now discouraged

but that is today..this moment..right now

these sad feelings will soon disappear...

tomorrow the sun will shine once again

but today I am human, my dear.